Monday, August 31, 2009

Stuck in the System's Box

I want to go outside. I don’t want to look at trees through windows as if they are on display at a zoo. Or is it me who is in the cage? It feels like one. We take these classes that a lot of, we never use again. It’s not to learn, it’s for the sake of the system. They teach us facts and points, no HOW to learn. What happens when we leave here? When we haven’t been taught how to keep learning throughout our lives? There’s a song by a man named Jack Johnson. It’s called “Breakdown” and there is a part that says,

“The wisdom’s in the trees, not the glass windows.”
We learn through experience, not facts. How many times have you really learned much at a zoo? Not much, the little you do is from your observations with the animal, aka your experience. The same goes for life. If the world ended today, would I really want to be found in a school? Why not be found out in the world, learning FIRST hand how it is. Our system is dead and we don’t realize it and if it doesn’t change, the world and everything in it will slip from our fingers. It’s time for us to break away from our fogged and distorted paradigm and see what we forgot was around us. Take in God’s world.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Welcome to My Soapbox...

August 26th 2009
Having a dream or believing in something no one else believes in, is the hardest and most taxing thing an individual can go through. When others don’t believe in it, than you tend to have obvious emotional and mental stress, but they take physical aspects too. You put so much energy into strength, determination, resilience, perseverance, that you become tired. You become slower, sluggish, even. After a while your personality starts to weaken, you become duller, less interested, and apathetical. The thing is, if you ever let yourself get to that point, you either are stubborn, or have something valuable. If that’s the case, then you have to push through, never stop, never give up, you have to stand up and surprise everyone. You have to say “this is my dream, I will stop at nothing to reach it. If you don’t want me to reach it, that’s fine, I don’t care.” You have to take every compliment and use them, let them life you up. Every insult, put under your feet to bring you higher. Rejoice in friends who stand by you, let go of the pain when they leave. If you have a dream: FIGHT, KICK, and SCREAM. Don’t let anyone take away your hope or potential. You have ONE life, ONE chance, it’s all or nothing. Most of all have faith, believe in yourself, give love to others and never hold anything against anyone.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Prostawhat? Prosthodontics.

August 25th, 2009

Dental Surgery is hell. I’ve had maybe 10 or so, maybe more since I was 16. I turn 18 in less than a month. With my lucky composition, I’ve been blessed with a one-two punch of pain. I suffer from Amelogenesis Imperfecta. Basically a birth defect that causes the enamel (Amelo) to develop (genesis) wrong (imperfecta) leading to hyper calcified teeth. Teeth are chalky in places, spongy in others, they are falling apart. These dental surgeries mean to fix it all by crowning all my teeth with veneers. Easier said than done. First off for anyone, it cost $10,000 dollars out of pocket. Secondly for me, I have hyper sensitive teeth. Fun! Then I get another sweet piece, I’m extremely tolerant to anesthetic. For Instance: they have to give me 3 shots every 15-20 minutes (6 for both sides of the face), so 3-6 shots, every 15-20 mins, for 3.5 to 5 hours. So anywhere between 42 and 90 shots an appointment. That is only to get NUMB. It the most physically hellish thing I know. It can be psychologically numbing going into it, because no matter how you look at it, with my condition, it’s torture. Truly a white smile cost me blood, sweat, and tears. As well as part of my college tuition… but I digress. Like all painful things, I’ve gone through, I wouldn’t change them. I feel stronger and better for going through it, even when I’m still in them. Pain is a motivator.